“I left on a super high note,” [SPOILER] tells EW of that elimination loss.

Warning: This article contains spoilers about Wednesday’s episode ofThe Challenge: Double Agents.

But this time, onThe Challenge: Double Agents, those tears were actually happy tears.

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“I’ve never been so paranoid and emotional and it was just a lot for me.

But I left on a super high note.

Ferreira admits with a laugh.

ENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY: So what madethis eliminationdifferent, where you left feeling satisfied instead of sad?

ANEESA FERREIRA:I won three dailies which is more than I ever have.

I performed as well as I could.

I left everything out there; there was nothing more I could have done.

I couldn’t be mad if I did everything I could.

And it was the first season I had a purpose, and I felt like that was fulfilled.

It was in my hands; I was the one who couldn’t pull out the win.

There was no one to really be mad at, and I realized why I was voted in.

They thought it was funny.

Almost everything works out the way it’s supposed to work out.

And it kind of helps me to make sense of all of it.

But it is annoying to keep hearing it.

Were you surprised by anything anyone said about you in their interviews?

I feel like she could have said moretome.

I asked if he wanted a new partner, we’d make it happen.

It’ll probably be beneficial for you to do so!

I was just over it.

I’m like, you all probably talk s—.

I know it’s a part of the game.

Right, it’s not therapy!

[Laughs] It feels like it but it’s not.

[Laughs] I don’t know what people are thinking when they go in.

What was that like for you, especially having been a part of this franchise for so long?

Kam and I talked about it a lot.

And it came full circle.

That was my purpose, and that’s why it was so easy to go.

There was such a bigger win.

Representation matters, and growing up I didn’t have anybody that looked like me.

In hindsight, I didn’t know how valuable that would have been.

you’re able to curb it a little bit.

And I mean singular winners.

But that’s what I was most proud of, and I mean, I lost it.

Most of my tears came from at least accomplishing that before I left.

Do you have any regrets about how you played the game this season?

I would have picked a different partner.

I would have picked Darrell from the beginning.

I just think Darrell’s an awesome guy so it would have been nice to have worked with him.