The Challengeis no stranger to competitors exiting early.
“I found out I was pregnant while I was out there,” she reveals.
But in the end it wasn’t my decision.
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I ended up having a miscarriage."
It’s very therapeutic," she says.
And for me, I never felt that.
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“I don’t want women to suffer.
If I can help even a few fans and women out there, it’s a win-win.”
NATALIE ANDERSON:The episode is really respectful of why I left.
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There’s no hints, and the reason is because it was a very personal moment.
Saying goodbye and leaving an opportunity that I knew I would have been really good at was very difficult.
I was training ridiculously hard.
The timeline is I already had left to film and I was already pregnant.
We had this very candid conversation that triggered production to have me take a pregnancy test.
In the moment, I didn’t even in my wildest dreams think that I could be pregnant.
Obviously that was a little naive of me.
I spoke to Devin for maybe five minutes.
He was freaking out.
That must have been such a difficult decision to make in the moment.
Why did you want to share your story now?
So I’m doing this not only for myself, but also for anybody that has believed in me.
How are you doing now that you’ve had some time and distance from the show and your exit?
And then I also have this feminine personality that is way more free and flowing.
And [the miscarriage] was another loss that I had to go through.
The journey is hard enough, so the one thing you oughta be to yourself is kind.
That’s how I’ve gotten through a lot of the losses in my life, a.k.a.
losing $2 million.
[Laughs] Things that just happen to you, you’ve got the option to’t control it.
The only thing is to always move forward.
I’m super-proud of where I am right now.
Does ending that chapter also apply toThe Challenge?
Are you interested in coming back for another season in the future?
I knew that MTV would come knocking just because of my exit.
So TBD, not decided yet.
It’s hard to imagine you coming back and not getting that win if you tried again.
So we’ll see what happens.
The biggest surprise was how difficult it was to live in that house.
It reminds me of immunity challenges onSurvivor.
What did you learn from your time on the show and having to leave early?
This season my takeaway was never take anything for granted.
I was out there pregnantandI was able to compete.
Did you meet anyone this season that you stayed in contact with?
Even though she tried to vote me off immediately!
[Laughs] She’s like the big sister, she knows all the answers.
She knows that I’m strong and she knew that I could do this and help other people.
He DMed me and asked if everything was okay, and since then we stayed in contact.
Is there anything else you wanted to share about your experience?
I’ve had a lot of practice letting go of things, moving through some really hard emotional stuff.
This is hard enough.
But at the same time, me being unkind to myself would never let me move past it.
