“It’s one of my biggest regrets on the show,” Martinez tells EW.
“My anxiety is killing me.”
JOSH MARTINEZ:No, I had no idea.
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And everybody in the house knew that.
We were avoiding each other at all costs.
We didn’t have one conversation.
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It was so bad.
How long had it been between Fessy blindsiding Amber and this big fight happening?
It was probably like four or five days where we weren’t talking at all.
I mean, I don’t even remember what was said.
If I’m being completely honest, it’s probably my worst side of me.
But I was just really frustrated with how everything was going on with our alliance.
What exactly happened the night of the fight?
Because you weren’t even involved at the beginning, you were just minding your own business.
Yeah, that night was crazy.
I was like, “F it, I’m going to go play pool.”
Even then I was standing outside for a while.
I was like, “I’m not going to go inside.”
I was trying to calm myself down.
And then a switch came over me and I just saw red.
I honestly blacked out and just snapped on him.
But I was avoiding it!
I wasn’t even in the main house.
People wanted to see something.
People were bored, and definitely it was instigated by a lot of people.
A lot of people benefited off of seeing theBig Brotheralliance breaking.
Do you regret joining the fight knowing how it turned out?
It’s one of my biggest regrets on the show.
It makes it even worse that I’m so close to him because of what happens after the fight.
Amber and Esther never really got along in the house.
I never saw them having any conversations.
But she got in a mix where there’s so much history.
But I do respect how she came to Fessy’s defense.
I just didn’t like how it all played out with them all.
I do respect what she was standing for [laughs] besides [throwing] the drink.
It hasn’t changed my opinion.
At the end of the day, Fessy and Kaycee are like family to me.
That’s one of my biggest blessings, that we have such a good friendship.
I will say it is a little awkward seeing the interviews and having to relive it.
I had such a good season that this just sucks having to rewatch it.
I just hope that it doesn’t damage our friendship.
People don’t even understand how hard it was.
We’re actually in New York [together].
But I think we’re good.
But has this changed your outlook on whether or how you’d work with Fessy and Kaycee moving forward?
[Laughs] We haven’t even had that conversation, but I know that our friendship is solid.
I just really don’t know in future seasons how it’s going to play out for us.
It’s not good.
It’s really bad.
So the fact that it went to that point?
For me, he definitely crossed the line, for sure.
I was screaming, and it just gets ugly.
It’s the start of a whole blowup.
I’m not looking forward to it.
What inspired you to change up the way you played this season in such a big way?
That’s where my massive frustration came from.
A lot of people wanted him gone.
It wasn’t a good move on his end, and he knows that now.
[Laughs] But he can’t take it back.
