Warning: This article contains spoilers for Wednesday’s episode ofThe Challenge: Spies, Lies and Allies.
ENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY: How are you feeling about your first time being eliminated fromThe Challenge?
AMBER BORZOTRA:I didn’t want to go, of course.
Amber Borzotra and Jeremiah White on ‘The Challenge: Spies, Lies and Allies’.MTV
No one wants to leave once you’re in the game.
I was bummed, but going out like that, with a lot of fight and giving my all?
The elimination was tough.
Amber Borzotra on ‘The Challenge: Spies, Lies and Allies’.MTV
I did not give up, and I tried my hardest to stay in the game.
That elimination looked brutal.
Cory even made a comment after about how it took about three hours.
‘The Challenge: Spies, Lies and Allies’.MTV
Is that really how long it lasted?
It took it took a while, I don’t even know how long.
[Laughs] When I’m up there, it feels like ages.
But we were there for at least over an hour, so he’s probably not exaggerating.
Once we got the flow of things, we started sweating and I started slipping.
I had no grip with Jeremiah.
The fatigue was kicking in.
It was such a hard elimination.
We all were struggling.
What’s your relationship like now?
You know, life’s just different, I guess, after the show.
We don’t speak really, we don’t talk at all.
It just wasn’t it.
But I think that he’s an amazing person.
I’m happy I got to know him.
That must not have been easy for you to see.
That’s the hard part for me.
I feel close to a lot of these people in the game.
So for me, that was tough.
That was extremely hard.
I don’t know… [Sighs] I don’t want to get emotional.
I go into the game, I care a lot, and I’m a little too naive sometimes.
So I take it personal when I’m hearing those things.
[Laughs] Isn’tthatfake?
So that right there bothered me.
I’m having a hard time with it.
It’s not something I deal with in my everyday life.
I’ve just been spending time with family and feeling loved by the ones that I know love me.
I’m sorry, I’m getting emotional.
[Choked up] Yeah, I’m just having a hard time with it.
And I haven’t really opened up about it… We don’t have to talk about this if you don’t want to.
[Takes a deep breath] It’s okay.
You’re my girl, let’s work together."
I was like, “I love Kaycee!
I’m excited about [the]Big Brother[alliance].”
That’s hurtful, because I don’t think that way.
If anything, I’m doing things that I want to do to make suretheymake it far.
But I feel naive.
I trust people too easily and I care too much.
I was a lone wolf.
I was by myself, I didn’t have anybody.
She’s just a number to us."
I was literally alone.
Now watching this whole season, I’m like, “Why am I this dumb?”
I should have just worked with the rookies.
[Laughs] I’m learning.
[Laughs] So I’m definitely learning.
What are your relationships with Fessy and Kaycee like now after you’ve seen what happened this season?
It wasn’t even about game, we really just opened up.
Just know that it’s…" whatever.
But that just didn’t happen.
I think that’s the part that hurts the most.
I don’t know, I’m really confused when it comes to that.
Those were the three that haven’t won; of course I want to see Ashley in there too.
I let everyone know I was proud of them.
I had no bad blood.
I felt like I was leaving with good energy.
So I don’t know, I’m just very confused by a lot of things.
I don’t blame you.
Because it’s me, everyone’s saying something about it.
I’ve seen Josh cry, does she say anything about him?
But she’d be like, “It’s Josh.
I’ve got Josh.
I love Josh.”
And that’s the whole house.
I just don’t get how these people think.
I don’t understand them, honestly.
And looking at this season, it’s been more women mad or hating on me.
And I’m all for my women over my men, like, “Let me help you!”
I’m so baffled by watching this season and seeing the amount of hate for no reason.
I’m blabbing right now.
CT, he cruised on by again this season.
I just never get that.
I don’t understand it.
[Laughs] Make it make sense!
How has this whole experience affected you and how you’ll approach future seasons?
1, stop being so naive, Amber.
[Laughs] Stop trusting everybody.
I’m really stupid when it comes to trusting people.
I’m like, “Okay, I believe you!”
I need to learn to care more about myself.
I don’t put myself first in situations.
I think it comes with the people that I’m aligning myself with or trusting.
So I think from now on I just need to be careful with what people tell me.
Now I’m seeing people’s true colors.
At the end of the day, I am proud of how I play the game.
There’s not much I want to change.
I’ve already made it to a final.
You’re going to have a target on your back."
And of course, I have dyscalculia.
If I could work on my math, I would!
[Laughs] But I have a disability, so that sucks.
That’s the only other thing I wish I could change.
But I really hope that I get to do many more of these.
I just am hurting right now, and I’m really upset with this season.
