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And her Apple TV+ documentaryBillie Eilish: The World’s a Little Blurrycaptures it all.
Billie Eilish in ‘The World’s a Little Blurry’.Apple TV+
Her mom’s heart breaks talking about how the team “failed” Eilish in that moment.
It’s a far cry from most other young pop stars on the same fame and success level.
her boyfriend Brandon “Q” Adams.
She knows he’s self-destructive and wants him to go to therapy.
“I can’t fix him.
I can’t do it anymore.
I’m not happy,” she says.
She has celebrity crushes
Everyone knows how deep Eilish’s love forJustin Biebergoes.
But before they met in person, he DMed her on Instagram offering to collab with her.
“No way, bring him back!
“He kissed me on the cheek.
If you ask Eilish, it was terrible.
“I like singing songs.
I like having songs to sing,” she says, standing in her kitchen.
“I’ve always hated [writing songs].
Every single time that I’ve written a song that I actually like, I’ve hated the process.
It really tortures me.”
There’s a lot of protecting Eilish’s feelings from the pressures of delivering a soon-to-be-iconic album.
But a lot of the time, she’s jumping and dancing through extreme pain.
She’s gotten shin splints and torn ligaments during concerts before and continued to perform in a walking boot.
“Everything I’ve ever loved, I’ve had to quit.
I used to dance like 12 hours a week.
And then I got injured.
I tore my growth plate in my hip, the bone separated from the muscle.
It was the most depressing year of my life.
I just laid in bed; I couldn’t move.
Since then, I have not danced.”
With each injury, she endures nonstop rehab and workouts.
“People are always like, it’s so dark, have happy music,” she says.
I feel the dark things.
I feel them very strongly, and why would I not talk about them?”
She hid razors in her room, and always had band-aids on her wrists.
Eilish also has Tourette syndrome, with many physical tics that are exacerbated when she’s tired or stressed.
Billie Eilish: The World’s a Little Blurryis now streaming on Apple TV+.
