Cazzie David kind of hopes you’ll never read her book.
And now that she’s completed the book, the truly hard work begins: publishing and self-promotion.
“They seem to be the same so far.”
Credit: Mariner
CAZZIE DAVID:I really put it all out there, in the book.
The scariest part of the process is not really knowing how people will react to that.
Will you read the reviews?
Katie McCurdy
When I hear that someone even uttered my name to another person, I get severe anxiety.
Good luck to me.
Without being balanced by the full picture of a person, the subject matter could be a little unsettling.
It might still be unsettling, even with all of them together in a book.
But anyways, I then wrote another, and I kind of kept writing more.
And you weren’t freaked out by that?
Well, this was another case of another being coming into my body and making that decision for me.
Her name might have been, like, Victoria.
She was a very confident person.
She did all of this, because I certainly wouldn’t do it.
That’s all I can say.
So that was the core of this book: what I was having anxiety over.
I’ll often have new thoughts about something I experienced, or find a better way to articulate things.
Did you talk to them beforehand or get any kind of permission?
She kind of thinks, what would you do without me, you’d have no material!
But I’m really grateful in the end that they were okay with it.
And he got off easy [in the book], let’s just say that.
What is your actual writing process?
It’s easy to imagine that the daughter of Larry David would be, like, hyper-driven.
I feel really bad about myself unless I spend time writing every day.
Just the wanting to feel good is enough to make me sit down and do it.
Writing from your bed makes it sound like you were set up to thrive in quarantine…
In the book, you really acknowledge your privilege whenever it comes up.
Is that something you had to consciously add in?
Unfortunately I’m hyper self-aware, to a fault.
So it’s not even me trying to get ahead of anything.
I know I’m privileged."
I’m aware it’s very unappealing, and I don’t know what to do about it.
It’s a horrible quality.
It’s something I’m aware of and know I have.
I hope maybe my writing is just as loud as my blatant privilege is.
Or was it something that was instilled in you actively while growing up?
And maybe it’s self-loathing too.
Did writing the book help you work through any of your anxieties?
But beyond that: My particular phone anxieties change monthly.
Or that we’re recording our entire lives, and the things that the phone can betray you with.
Like, you sawwhat happened with Chris Evans.
I was actually surprised that people didn’t start posting their own nudes out of support.
So that has been helpful for my pandemic-related anxiety.
Does Zoom factor in at all?
It’s as if no one is allowed to contact me.
I like Zoom, actually.
You know nothing bad is happening.
I do have stage fright, though, and I am supposed to be doing some appearances and events.
Hopefully that same person who came into my body and wrote the book will take over again.
